Life

In the last three weeks I have been without DSL at home and without my beloved Elph.  Oddly, both were returned to working order yesterday, HURRAH!

I'm sitting in a tower with work still in front of me, procrastinating not from my duties but from going home (who does that?)  Though I could opt to head out and finally share some of my beloved images with you all, I am more inspired to work in words tonight.

I am at a crux of change.  My absence from buzznet has been coincidently timed with my retraction from my "scene".  Yesterday I wrote an email explaining to my close social circle where I've disappeared to and why.  It only just occurred to me that buzznet community and personal community are parallel; I have dropped out of both almost entirely.

In this moment, while I am looking out of this high rise window on the world I admit that I don't know where I'm going.  What I do know is that this life I have been building for the last nine years is going to change.  Though I am tempted to cling to it out of nostalgia and a dash of fear, I realize that I am already on another path; my task now is to create the vision for what is in front of me.